Saturday, January 31, 2009

Take-Aways #4

- FIND A WALKING BUDDY: If you start walking regularly with a friend or a neighbor whose company you enjoy, you'll be multitasking in a good way - by exercising and socializing at the same time.

- MAKE CHANGES YOU CAN LIVE WITH: Finding ways to eat healthfully at restaurants or friends' houses or to incorporate your favorite foods into your meal plans will help you to make lasting changes and slim down for good.

- KEEP HIS-AND-HERS VERSIONS OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS: If you're trying to slim down and your spouse isn't, stock up on regular and low-fat versions of milk, mayo, salad dressing, ice cream, soda, crackers, and cookies. This will allow you both to eat what you like without harming your weight-loss efforts.

Originally printed in Weight Watchers Start living, Start losing.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Working my way down through the 70's

I've been at 180-something for so long I feel like my started weight was 185! I think back to my starting weight and I can't believe I was less than 3 pounds from 200. I don't ever want to go back to the 190's... heck, when I get out of the 180's I won't ever come back.

I felt like I was a high when I got into the 180's, but now this is old news and time to move on. As you know last week, like the past month was a challenge for me. But something has clicked and I'm back on track, I think it has something to do with me realizing how much I've spent on Weight Watcher meetings this time around! Close to $300, not including special Weight Watcher and Smart One's foods and snacks. I know I need the meetings, I truly enjoy them. I work hard, I take care of my family, I do everything I can to improve our lives so I deserve something for myself. My meetings are my something that's just for me. I don't mind spending the money, BUT if I'm going to be spending this money I better be sticking to program. I have no excuse.

This week I'm back in the game and ready to rock...

I didn't even want to post Wednesday's journal, I think I'm waiting to long to have dinner... when I get home I'm STARVING. I'm going to try having a large veggie snack in the every evening. Wednesday, I went home and ended up binging before dinner... not good. That's what the 5 slices of bread, bacon, peanut butter, and chocolate sauce is about. After the hunger monster calmed down and the damage was done, I had a chicken breast.

Yesterday was weigh-in - I was down .4 - I'm now 185.8. I was fine with .4, for a while now I've been happy with any loss.

As a parent of a teenager, yesterday was an extremely stressful day for me. Let me just tell you, if you have small children - DON'T LET THEM TURN INTO TEENAGERS! TEENAGERS WILL GIVE YOU A RUN FOR YOUR MONEY! DO NOT LET THEM TURN INTO TEENAGERS!

To make a long story short, I didn't eat in the morning because my meeting is at noon. What I usually do is take my oatmeal with me to my meeting, I weigh-in then eat breakfast before or during the meeting.

Yesterday I didn't have time to make my breakfast, but I figured I was coming right back so I would be fine. But as it turns out I wasn't able to go home - my day involved teenagers, a hospital, lies, punishments, and now serveral calls to the school principal. Between weigh-in and heading to the hospital I stopped in and found enough coins (had no money on me) to buy two boiled eggs. It was about 12:40pm when I finally had the eggs, and by the time I was walking by the Jack In The Box it was 5pm. I was going too hold my hunger but couldn't anymore. I had a long walk home and honestly as hungry and as mad as I was I don't think I would of made it. I was walking around with only change at the bottom of my purse, so the Jumbo Jack was the only thing I could afford. I didn't know it was going to cost me 14 points, I would of just had a plain hamburger for only 6 points, heck I could of had 2 hamburgers and still it wouldn't amount to what the Jumbo Jack cost me.

Oh well, I was starving - I had the Jumbo Jack - aside from that, I think I did pretty good. I could of skipped some of the salami and had broccoli on the side to fill me up, but I was at my mothers and just ate what she had that I didn't have to cook. I used up 12 flex points yesterday, but despite everything that was going on I feel pretty good about it.

So far today I'm doing good also. I have to do some running around this evening before I go home, so I'm going to have a bowl of broccoli before I leave work this evening and put a few Fiber One bars in my backpack.

Here's to a losing Super Bowl Weekend!

***WEDNESDAY***

Daily Points: 25
1 cup Oatmeal: 2 (23)
1/2 cup Fat-Free Milk: 1 (22)
2 Fiber One Bar: 4 (18)
Lean Cuisine South Western Style Sandwich: 6 (12)
1 Smart One's Mint Chocolate Ice Cream: 3 (9)
1 Pear: 1 (8)
4 Bacon Strips: 5 (3)
5 Slices White Bread: 5 (-2)
2 tbs Peanut Butter: 5 (-7)
2 tbs Chocolate Sauce: 2 (9)
4 oz Chicken Breast: 4 (-13)

Exercise: 0 (-13)
Flex Points Used: 0 (-12)

Fruits/Veggies: 1
Milk: 1
Liquids/Water: 2 1/2
Lean Proteins: 1
Multivitamin: 0
Filling Foods: 4



***THURSDAY***

Daily Points: 25
2 Boiled Eggs: 4 (21)
1 Jumbo Jack (JINB) Hamburger: 14 (7)
1 Mini Banana: 1 (6)
1 Pear: 1 (5)
2 slices Bread: 4 (1)
3 servings Dry Salami: 5 (-4)
1/2 servings Pomo Juice: 2 (-6)
1 Fiber One Bar: 2 (-8)
2 pieces Mexican Fruit Hard Jelly Candy: 4 (-12)

Exercise: 0 (-12)
Flex Points Used: 0 (-12)

Fruits/Veggies: 3
Milk: 0
Liquids/Water: 6
Lean Proteins: 2
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 4

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Take-Aways #3

- SAY YES TO A WORTHY CHALLENGE: Instead of automatically saying no to activities or events that sound difficult or time-consuming, accept the challenge of doing something that's healthy for you physically and emotionally; it'll be good for your weight as well as your state of mind.

- VIEW SWEET TREATS REALISTICALLY: If you want to lose weight, you can't have high-calorie sweets - cakes, cookies, candy, or full-dat ice cream - whenever you feel like it. You need to either find a lower-calorie substitute that you can have every day or save the rice desserts for once a week.

- TAKE SOME PERSONAL TIME: If you want to succeed at losing weight and improving your health, you need to carve out time for yourself - time to exercise, to de-stress, or to simply enjoy some solitude.

Originally printed in Weight Watchers Start living, Start losing.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

2 Frames of Thought: Lack of Confidence/Not Trying Hard Enough

Last night I watched my first episode of The Biggest Loser. It was pretty good, I think it's going to take me a few more episodes to truly get into it... I did however find it super motivating (as you've probably figured it out by now I've been having motivation issues lately). Seeing how much everyone on the show has to lose made me realize they have a whole lot more weight to lose than me... so why am I tripping on losing these 45 pounds, why am I not putting my whole heart into reaching goal, if I do I can be at goal by the end of this year if not sooner.

Something Dan on the show said that really got my attention and Sheryl (http://msbitchcakes.blogspot.com) quoted on her blog:

"I never thought it was possible - to not be fat. Because I've never known everything different. I look in the mirror and I try to see that this can happen..." - Dan (The Biggest Loser)

I sort of feel the same way. I've always been heavy... I was a husky child, my pediatrician use to tell my mother to cut down on my McDonalds, etc. Growing up I was always a little over weight usually only about 5-10 pounds over. When I got to high school I gained about 30-40 pounds I lost the weight (crash dieting) and for a while was underweight but that didn't last long, I got pregnant... after Vi was born I was then about 20 pounds over weight.

Through the years, I've gotten bigger and bigger until I reach my all time high if being 60 pounds overweight. My point is, according to the medical/health charts I've never been a truly healthy weight - so it's hard for me to image being at goal, and I think that's one of the things that sometimes discourages me and causes me to go off my trail and binge. When I'm losing weight and can start to see a difference, I get cocky and comfortable... but deep down inside a part of me gets scared and nervous... my mind starts to tell me that I can't do this, I won't stay this size for long... and other negative things. I freak out, and then start emotionally binging.

I need to start believing in myself, and erase those negative thoughts, or use them as a motivational tool - knowing that I can gain the weight back, that should motivate me to truly watch my diet and workout regularly. These negative thoughts could be used as a tool to strengthen my commitment to stay healthy, because I know the consequences if I don't.


Andrea.'s (http://acakeforawife.blogspot.com) wrote the following in her blog this morning:

I have this friend who is a registered massage therapist, and one night she was complaining about a couple of her clients who never want their massage to 'hurt' at all. And she was frustrated by this because sometimes you really have to work the muscles to get them right again, and sometimes that's going to hurt a bit, but because they were so scared of that she couldn't really help them. And she said, "People are so afraid of any discomfort, or of anything being hard. They don't realize that sometimes that's the way you have to go to get where you want to be."

A lot of things 'clicked' for me then.

But something happened that day, I don't know. I embraced the idea of 'hard'. I stopped connecting 'hard' with 'bad' or 'undesirable'.

Losing weight IS hard. It takes real work. But that doesn't mean it's 'too hard'. That doesn't mean we can't do it. We CAN do it. All of us can.


This touched me. And made me realize that this time that I've been trying to lose weight I've been trying, but not hard enough. I could do more, like REFUSING to go over my daily points, like saying NO THANK YOU when people offer me high point foods, and not giving in to snack buying when grocery shopping with my mother because she's buying some.

I can stay on program every day. I have the tools, a information and education, and the support. I just need to make more of an effort and have more control over what goes in my body, and what I do with my body. I AM THE BOSS OF ME!

Looking back, I think I've been trying to push this Weight Loss Wagon with only one hand, I need to use two in order to get it really moving.

Another thing is I need to get REAL workouts in... I do get activity in because I do a lot of running around. I work part time, raise a teenage daughter by myself, I have a boyfriend, I care for my mother and her personal needs - so that means I'm not only in charge of running my household, I'm also partially in charge of hers. Between all that I get a lot of activity points in, but can I really honestly count that as true exercise? No, most of the time I don't sweat or strain. I need to make a commitment to get real exercise in, time when I put my workout clothes on and am doing an activity that has me continuously moving and sweating - whether it be jumping, dancing, running, etc.

I have no excuse for not setting time apart. I have numerous exercise videos of all kinds, exercise bands, small hand weights, an exercise ball, a mini trampoline, a yoga mat, not to mention Ross practically has a whole gym in his garage that he's more than happy to share with me, and I know a bit about exercising from working with Chiropractors and in the past managing health clubs (I was a trainer desk junkie). I know how to exercise, and physically I can exercise. I have no injuries or health problems. I'm asthmatic but through the years have learned to work around it and control it. I may not know everything about exercise but I do have a general knowledge and could actually probably tone up quite a bit without the help of a personal trainer. I can do all of this, but I don't out of laziness and procrastination... ignoring myself and not taking the time or I guess caring enough to do it.

I can use my busy schedule as an excuse but I know deep down it's not a very good one. If I went to bed early, I could get up early and get a 30 minute workout in before work.

I haven't been trying hard enough, and if I truly want to get to goal I need to put some hustle (or should I say muscle) into it.

Tomorrow is weigh-in. I haven't checked my scale since a couple of days ago... the last I checked it said 185.5. I honestly can't say if I'll have a gain or not. The good thing about tomorrow is it's a brand new start for me. I know a few days ago I said this next week I would be doing an experiment with my first week's journal. I was going to eat exactly the way I did my very first week - when I lost 6 pounds. I took a better look at that journal today, and I can't do it. I lived on snacks. I know lately I've been binging, but that was truly a full week of just processed crap... I mostly ate chicken, Fiber One bars, Fat Free pudding, and Hostess 100 Calorie snacks. I know I haven't been very good lately with staying within points, but I think what I'm eating is a whole lot healthier than what I had that first week. I've been working on eating balanced meals, and I feel if I do a week of eating like that again I'll lose weight but it'll still be a step back...

So, I've decided to browse my old food journals for ideas... but I don't think I want to go back to a week of 17 Fiber One bars, 12 containers of Fat Free Pudding, 50-60 oz of Chicken, and 15 Hostess 100-Calorie Snacks... lol.

Here's to a new week and a more balanced and newly committed me, and to all of you who are also currently experiencing bumps in your weight loss journey. Like Andrea. said... We CAN do it!


The following is my journal for Monday and Tuesday... (not too pretty):

***MONDAY***

Daily Points: 25
1 cup Oatmeal: 2 (23)
1/2 cup Fat-Free Milk: 1 (22)
1 Fiber One Bar: 2 (20)
Lean Cuisine South Western Style Sandwich: 6 (14)
1 Fiber One Bar: 2 (12)
1 Banana: 2 (10)
3 oz Beef Jerky: 4 (6)
2 cups Cucumber: 0 (6)
1 Lemon Juiced: 0 (6)
4 oz Chicken: 3 (3)
1 Peanut Butter Smoothie: 3 (0)
3 tbs Chocolate Sauce: 3 (-3)
4 tbs Peanut Butter: 8 (-11)
1 Peanut Butter Smoothie: 3 (-14)

Exercise: 0 (-14)
Flex Points Used: 0 (-14)

Fruits/Veggies: 3
Milk: 3
Liquids/Water: 3
Lean Proteins: 2
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 7


***TUESDAY***


Daily Points: 25
1 Banana: 2 (23)
Sandwich: 10 (13)
3 slices of Headcheese: 8 (5)
2 slices of Bread: 3 (2)
1 cup Blueberries: 1 (1)
Chocolate Candy: 15 (-14)
1 tbs Chocolate Sauce: 1 (-15)
2 tbs Peanut Butter: 4 (-19)
4 oz Chicken Breast: 3 (-22)
3 oz Chicken Breast: 2 (-24)
2 cups Brown Rice: 8 (-32)
Grilled Vegetables: 0 (-32)
1 cup Sugar-Free Kool Aid: 0 (-32)
4 oz Chicken Breast: 3 (-35)
3 Brownies: 11 (-46)

Exercise - 30 minutes slow: 1 (-45)
Flex Points Used: 0 (-45)

Fruits/Veggies: 3
Milk: 0
Liquids/Water: 2
Lean Proteins: 4
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 7

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Emergen-C

As an adult, I've always had problems taking multivitamins... actually all vitamins except for children's and Vitamin C gave me stomach problems. Then a couple of years ago I was catching a cold and a friend of mine introduced me to Emergen-C...

It didn't bother my stomach, and even though it calms to give a boost of energy - it doesn't make me feel jumping or shaky(I tend to be sensitive to BOOSTS). But when I'm starting to feel sick I take two in a day and I start to feel better quicker. I use this as a multivitamin now... and I love it.

I've recommended this stuff to a couple of friends who have sense starting using it. This is not a paid endorsement, just me telling a friend (you) about something I like and you might like to try also.

Check out their website: http://www.emergenc.com you can send away for free samples of Emergen-C before you buy.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Saved 2 Points!

Last night I pulled out my journal from my first week back on Weight Watchers, when I lost 6 pounds. I'm thinking of doing a little experiment and next week eating exactly what I ate that week and see what I lose. I think it would be a fun experiment. I thought it was interesting how my taste buds have changed since them. In one week I had about 15 Fiber One bars! My daily intake wasn't very balanced but I did save points that week... and I lost 6 pounds that week! I know it had to do with it being my first week... but I should still be able to get a loss from it. I’mma try it and see what happens. Imagine if I lost another 6 or even 5 or 4 pounds in a week... I would totally make this my regular diet... lol.

Speaking of daily intake - here's mine from yesterday. Not bad, I saved three points:

Daily Points: 25
2 Over Easy Eggs: 5 (20)
1 Slice Toast: 1 (19)
Butter Spray: 0 (19)
2 Slices Bacon: 2 (18)
1/2 cup Orange Juice: 1 (17)
2 Slices Bacon: 2 (15)
1 Chicken Thigh: 3 (12)
1 Cup Broccoli: 0 (12)
Butter Spray: 0 (12)
3 Cups Salad Greens: 0 (12)
4 oz Mixed Turkey: 4 (8)
2 tbs Light Dressing: 1 (7)
1 Cookie: 2 (5)
Sushi: 2 (3)

Exercise: 0
Flex Points Used: 0

Fruits/Veggies: 5
Milk: 0
Liquids/Water: 5
Lean Proteins: 3
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 8

Tonight I'm be trying out a smoothie recipe... I don't usually like spending points on smoothies because they don't fill me up for long. But this one might be different, it has peanut butter... it's the Peanut Butter Banana Smoothie (3 pts), I posted the recipe here in September... you can find it by going to the lower menu on the right of this page and clicking on recipes (there are only about 9 right now), then scrolling down. If you don't want to do that, but still curious - you can wait for tomorrow, I'll have a video up.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

That's Some Hott Sh*t!

I tried to get creative today for dinner... in my salad greens mix, I added tomato, cooked mushrooms, and I heated up 4oz of turkey and added a little (bit too much) chipotle in adobe sauce. HOLY CRAP! If you're having a problem getting enough green vegetables and water in... do what I did!

That turkey was so hot, I couldn't help but shove leafy greens and water down my throat to get the burning out of my mouth. Even after I was completely full my mouth still burned for a bit, after a while it died down. For for dinner I had 4oz turkey, tomato, mushrooms, and about 3-4 cups of leafy salad, plus 5 glasses of water. That stuff BURNED.

My weekend didn't go so well, I got in some wholesome foods, but then topped them with brownies again.

Here's Friday and Saturday's menu.

***FRIDAY***
Daily Points: 25
Oatmeal 1 cup: 2 (23)
Fat Free Milk 1/2 cup: 1 (22)
1 Serving Trail Mix: 4 (18)
1 Fiber One Bar: 2 (16)
Costco Sampling: 3 (13)
3 Servings Sushi Rolls: 14 (-1)
1 Fiber One Bar: 2 (-3)
1 Serving Trail Mix: 4 (-7)
4 oz Turkey: 4 (-11)
Hpnotiq: 5 (-16)
2 cups Broccoli: o (-16)
1 oz Cheeze: 3 (-19)

Exercise 30 minutes slow: +1 (-18)
Flex Points Used: 8 (-10)

Fruits/Veggies: 2
Milk: 1
Liquids/Water: 0
Lean Proteins: 1
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 4

***SATURDAY***
Daily Points: 25
1 Egg: 2 (23)
3 Egg Whites: 1 (22)
1 Orange: 1 (21)
1 Taco Shell: 1 (18)
1 2/3 oz Hamburger Meat: 3 (15)
Lettuce/Tomato: 0 (15)
Hot Sauce: 0 (15)
1 cup Strawberries: 1 (14)
1 1/3 Chicken Thighs: 4 (10)
2 cups Strawberries: 2 (8)
Brownies: 7 (1)
1/2 cup Cooked Carrots: 1 (0)
3/4 cup Broccoli: 0 (0)
BBQ Sauce: 1 (-1)
Brownies: 28 (-29)
Low Fat Milk: 2 (-31)

Exercise: 0 (-31)
Flex Points Used: 0 (-31)

Fruits/Veggies: 7
Milk: 1
Liquids/Water: 1 1/2
Lean Proteins: 1
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 8

Friday, I think I would have been okay if I wouldn't of had the samples at the store and if I would of skipped the trail mix, it was just too good. It was my first time trying and I realized it's a trigger food, so no more for me. Not worth the 4 points for 3 tbs... forget that. I could have 4 fruits, or 2 Fiber One bars for that price! Overall I think Friday was a D+ day, I should of had some water, more veggies, and cut the alcohol.

Saturday, I think it's clear where I went wrong... those darn brownies that I vowed I wasn't going to make when the kids weren't around. He did all the cooking this weekend... and kept hinting for brownies. I felt sort of guilty, so that night I broke down and made them. Next time I think I'll try substituting a diet 7-up for oil and eggs - that would cut down the points per serving in half... that would be a lot better, and maybe try making only 1/2 the batch - so we won't pig out so much. It was a C+ I did great on my stats, my downfall was very little water and those darn yummy brownies.

Today, I think I've done pretty good... I only used up 23 points so far... it's close to bed time so I think it'll be it for the day.

It's late, I've better get ready for bed.

See you tomorrow.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Baked Chicken

Points Value: 3
Servings: 4
Preparation Time: 10 min
Cooking Time: 35 min
Level of Difficulty: Easy

Ingredients
1 spray(s) cooking spray
1 pound(s) uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast, four 4 oz halves
1/2 tsp table salt
1/4 tsp black pepper, freshly ground
1 tsp olive oil
2 tsp fresh lemon juice, or more to taste
2 tsp rosemary, fresh, chopped
2 tsp parsley, fresh, chopped
1/4 cup(s) canned chicken broth
1/2 medium lemon(s), quartered (for garnish)

Instructions
* Preheat oven to 400ºF. Coat a small, shallow roasting pan with cooking spray.

* Season both sides of chicken with salt and pepper. Transfer chicken to prepared pan and drizzle with oil; sprinkle with lemon juice, rosemary and parsley. Pour broth around chicken to coat bottom of pan.

* Bake until chicken is cooked through, about 30 to 35 minutes. Garnish with fresh lemon and serve. Yields 1 chicken breast half per serving.

Originally posted on WeightWatchers.com (http://www.weightwatchers.com/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeid=108311&sc=11)

Friday, January 23, 2009

I could of swore it was 3 oz per serving, not 3 TBS!

Yesterday's food intake could have been a whole lot better. But all I can do now is just have a better day today. Here's my intake for yesterday, notes to follow:

Daily Points: 25
Oatmeal 1 cup: 2 (23)
Fat Free Milk 1/2 cup: 1 (22)
JITB Chicken Fajita: 6 (16)
2 Fiber One bars: 4 (12)
Steak 4.7oz: 6 (6)
3 PH Breadsticks: 10 (-4)
Tomato Sauce: 0 (-4)
1/2 cup Mushrooms: 0 (-4)
6 Servings Trail Mix: 24 (-28)

Exercise 30 minutes slow: +1 (-27)
Flex Points Used: 27 (0)

Fruits/Veggies: 2
Milk: 1
Liquids/Water: 7 1/2
Lean Proteins: 1
Multivitamin: 1
Filling Foods: 3

I started the day off good, and even when I had the Jack In The Box Fajita that was good. My mess up started with the Pizza Hut Breadsticks and ended with the Trailmix.

We went to Target my mother insisted on stopping at the snack bar. I should of gotten a yogurt parfait, but for some reason thought the breadsticks would be less points. The yogurt parfait was HUGE... I didn't intend to have so much trail mix. I read the package and calculated the points before I had a serving... I thought it said 3oz per serving... it was 3 tbs per serving, I didn't realize that until much later after I had what I thought was 3 servings. After the damage was done I figured out 3 tbs is about 1.5 oz. Remind me never to buy that stuff again. I try to steer clear of snacky foods... but when shopping with my mother I tend to go for that sort of thing. The trail mix was way too good and it's hard to stay away from. Super good with it's nuts, dry cranberries, and white chocolate chips... not worth 4 points for 1.5 oz. After I finish this package I'm done with them... they do taste really good in oatmeal. I tried it this morning... soooo good.

My exercise was me walking around Target... of course we were there more than 30 minutes, but I decided that if I'm not doing actual exercise and just doing shopping and stuff like that I'll only count it as half the actual time. I think that's fair.

I should of had less trail mix and more veggies. I did do GREAT on my water, and remembered my Multivitamin! If grading it I think this was about a C day... what do you think?

A bit of good news before I leave... I got on the scale this morning and it said 184.0 that's a good sign the beef ball is breaking down and getting the heck out!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Beef Balls and Scales

I weighted in today, and had a gain. The beef ball in my stomach hadn't started breaking down until this morning, and I knew by weigh-in it wasn't going to be all out... it was only halfway gone. I had a gain of 1.8 which puts me at a total loss of 10 pounds. I'm disappointed in myself... by now I should have at least 20 pounds gone. At least!

But, I can't live in the past, only work on my future. I'm disappointed, but I'm not going to give up. I have too much support to give up now. Ross is extremely supportive and I've become a part of this weigh loss community, I will not let you down - I know you won't give up on me, and I refuse to give up on myself. I want this! I need this!

I thought I did pretty good this week, except for the not too great, but not too bad weekend, and the Obama Beef incident. Yes, that's right. I love him, but I'm blaming him for the beef tacos/burritos.

Anywhoo... this is it. I need to make some changes. I'm not that bad, and in the beginning I was about the same as I am now and I was losing. Then I realized, a couple of months ago I switched from guesstimating portion sizes to weighing them on my (hardly used) scale.

This past week I had turkey most days. When I weighed the turkey on my scale it seemed like a lot, but I figured I had been under-guesstimating on my meats, either that or turkey is a hellava lot lighter than chicken. Either way I went by the scale, it seemed like a lot - but why would Target and the breast cancer people make and sell a scale that doesn't work... even if it is made of pink plastic (super cute).

I realized today that it could be possible that my scale might be off a bit... I broke down, went to Target and got a (what I think is) descent scale. I compared the two scales side by side... and here are the results:

My first scale, weighing a small dish...


I weighed the same dish on my new scale and here's what I got:
See the results? I've basically been eating over double of what I thought I was eating. The plate weighed in on the old scale at 2oz, my new one 4.5oz. I have a feeling this week there will be a loss!

While at Target today, I also picked up a workout towel that I'm going to embroidery with DIET SODA DIVA, as a motivator and reminder to get real workouts in and quit pretending walking the secondhand stores counts as true working out. And to go along with the workout towel I also got a couple of better support sports bras.

I am ready, and I'm going to kick ass!

Also I need to get my journaling in check, so this week and until I reach my 10% (that's 9 more pounds) I will be posting my daily journal at the end of each post. Feel free to send me tough love, and constructive critical comments.

So children, today's lessons are:
1. MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A DESCENT SCALE!
2. NOT ALL SCALES ARE CREATED EQUALLY!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

No More Beefing Around!

Yesterday, I decided that I was going to use up very little points through out the day and save the majority of them for my special inauguration dinner I was making.

I had oatmeal in the morning and broccoli for lunch. For dinner I had taco/burritos with homemade flour tortillas, fresh lean beef, guacamole, sour cream, and a bit of cheese. Basically all the stuff I should avoid when having a healthy burrito/taco. It was sooo good.

I'm not a regular beef eater. I'll have an occasional hamburger, but that's usually it. I rarely ever buy beef or pork for the house. Oh boy, I don't think my body likes it anymore.

I had dinner last night about 7ish/8ish. I didn't eat to fully explode but I was full, and when my food settled in I felt like I was carrying a rock in my stomach. It didn't hurt... it was just like a rock – maybe a boulder. I went to bed with my boulder, and when I woke up (late and feeling sluggish) this morning I was still full! Full enough to not want breakfast. Heck it’s almost lunch time and I’m still satisfied/full! WTF?!

I made my oatmeal and have it here with me, just in case I get hungry later. I'll just have that when I get hungry and have my lunch later.

It's going to be a broccoli day. I need to clear out this crap out of my body. I don't think my body agrees with beef anymore and right now the way I'm feeling I'm okay with that. I can stick to my poultry, fish and occasional hamburger.

I'm not going to fully blame the beef, I honestly think it was the combination of rich, fatty, yumminess that formed the rock and is making me feel blah right now. Whatever was the cause, I didn't like the feeling. I couldn't even get out of bed this morning. I can't and won't do that to myself again.

I think this is a sign that my efforts towards living a healthier lifestyle are working. My body’s rebelling against that stuff. It wants fruits and vegetables. Funny how your body adapts so quickly.

Tomorrow's weigh-in. I need to clear some of the crap out before then, so it's broccoli and water today... maybe a little fruit. I did better this week then I did last week. Tomorrow starts a brand new week and that means I'll do even better next week then I did this one!

If I can clear this boulder out, I should have a loss.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009



See that badge above? Have you seen it around on other blogs? Do you know what it is? The Biggest Loser and General Mills is teaming up for a pound for pound challenge.

From the words of Dude at WW - here's how it works: You pledge to lose a certain amount of weight and General Mills will donate 10 cents for every pound you lose to a local food bank. Apparently 10 cent for a food bank will be about a pound of food with the buying power they have.

I have pleaded to lose 20 pounds starting at 185.2. I can totally lose 20 pounds by May... hopefully I'll be down even more by then.

This is a great cause, and it's a great way for you to help out - volunteer (sort of) without really giving any time, and a way for you to donate without spending your money. Interested? Click the badge above for more information and to sign up... also Dude at WW (http://dudeatww.blogspot.com/) is also running his own challenge offering the same... 10 cents for every pound you lose... you can join his too.

Come on people let's lose some weight and help feed the hungry at the same time.

For Dude at WW's Challenge entry click this link: (http://dudeatww.blogspot.com/2009/01/pound-for-pound-challenge-to-help-feed.html)

Monday, January 19, 2009

Not too bad...

This weekend I like the rest wasn't my best. I went over my points more than I did last week... but I got way more filling foods in this time, and way more water. So I'm not feeling so bad about it. I am however back on program today, and I'm trying trim a few points a day until Thursday's weigh-in. I'm expecting a loss this week.

I can't say how much of a loss... but a loss, and that's fine.

I'm still annoyed with myself about the gain over the holidays. 3.8 pounds really was a big step backwards for me. I gained almost 1/3 of what I had lost, not good. I know I have to stop beating myself up over this, and just focus on moving forward, and that's what I'm trying to do... but it's hard not to think about it when I look at my Weight Watcher's passport thingy, and see that even though I had a loss this week I was already that weight about a month ago. I think once I reach my 15 pound loss I'll be better.

I'm been attempting to stick to my daily menu that I came up with... but it's been hard... but I will stay I am getting tons more veggies in, filling foods, and water.

We had brownies again this weekend. I don't know if I mentioned it this before, but last weekend I made the VERY, VERY best Peanut Butter Brownies and Ross and I... mostly I ate the whole tray of brownies by ourselves.

This weekend the kids were there so I didn't do so bad with the brownies... I had two small servings and that was it. I think that's quite an NSV.

I was able to save 2 points today, and exercise an hour. Tomorrow I'm not sure about the shaving part... but I will be getting some exercise in. I'm thinking about getting up super early and talking a walk to my local thrift store, then to the market to pick up some stuff for dinner.

Due to the inauguration tomorrow I'm planning a special dinner... stead tacos/burritos with homemade tortillas, guacamole, a little cheese, lettuce, and tomatoes... Hmmmm I can't wait. That means I'll have to have a my regular oatmeal breakfast, maybe a broccoli lunch with a little protein and fruit for snacks.

Well, it's pretty late... I'm going to head to bed now.

Sweet Dreams.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Take-Aways #2

- BE ASSERTIVE WHEN DINING OUT: Quiz your waiter about how a dish is prepared, and don't be shy about asking the chef to prepare something without sauces or extra fat. These days, many chefs are willing to do just that.

- PUSH YOURSELF TO TRY AT LEAST ONE NEW FRUIT OR VEGETABLE PER WEEK: You'll be treating yourself to a new taste sensation and a variety of nutrients - and you'll be helping to expand your culinary repertoire in a healthy, low-calorie way.

- QUIT THE CLEAN PLATE CLUB: If you get out of the habit of finishing what's on your plate - and stop eating when you're pleasantly satisfied, instead - you'll spare yourself loads of unnecessary calories at every meal.

Originally printed in Weight Watchers Start living, Start losing.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Take-Aways #1

- START YOUR DAY WITH A SENSIBLE BREAKFAST: Not only will eating a morning meal jump-start your energy from the day, but it can help you to avoid overeating at lunchtime and will keep your mood on a more even keel.

- AVOID EATING A BIG MEAL LATE AT NIGHT: Going to sleep with a full stomach can compromise the quality of your sleep and leave you feeling sluggish and uncomfortable the next morning.

- POLISH YOUR NAILS IN THE EVENING: If you do something with your hands - such as giving yourself a manicure or doing needlepoint or knitting - you'll make it impossible to snack after dinner; plus, you'll distract yourself from the desire to do so.

Originally printed in Weight Watchers Start living, Start losing.

Friday, January 16, 2009

It's OUR Year! Love yourself now, and live for today!

You know you've read too many blogs and stayed up way too late that night when you start dreaming about the bloggers.

I was up late last night trying to catch up on blog reading... recently I added a ton of new ones to my reading load, so I'm still adjusting to having so many great blogs to read. Reading so late into the night caused me to have the craziest, sort of motivating dream.

I don't remember the whole dream, you know the way they are sometimes sort of foggy and choppy. I dreamt I went to Los Angeles, which in my dream I think was Florida. I went to a meeting which was set up like a Weight Watcher's meeting... Tony (http://theantijared.blogspot.com), was the leader. I don't think it was a Weight Watcher's meeting because I get the feeling we were all at goal. I went to the meeting, I don't remember what he was talking about... I just remember looking around the room - everyone in the room wa at goal. Di (http://theincredibleshrinkingfamily.blogspot.com)was there, Hollie was there (http://skinnyhollie.com, Lisa (http://senseieyes.blogspot.com/), Skye (http://skye-lynn.blogspot.com/). There was also a few others that I don't know by name but who's blog I read... http://newsarahsundae.blogspot.com/, http://dudeatww.blogspot.com/, http://acakeforawife.blogspot.com/, http://dietingbattle.blogspot.com/, http://lowcarbpatty.blogspot.com/,
http://myfoodcomas.blogspot.com/, and http://msbitchcakes.blogspot.com/. How did I know it was them? Some of them looked like their photos, others I just knew it was them. After the meeting I went to the airport. When I got off the plane in my city. My daughter and I rode BMX bikes home from the airport... on the freeway... lol. Strange, Strange dream.

The dream didn't make sense, but what I took from the dream and the reason why I decided to share it with you all was that we were all at goal! :) THIS IS OUR YEAR LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

Okay onto things that do (sort of) make sense...

I did pretty good yesterday. I almost stuck to my menu plan... by the time I had my snack after lunch I was pretty full, I couldn't of had the dinner meal that I had planned... instead I wasted those points on a truffle, oatmeal, fruits, and Fiber One bars... I got exercise in, and used 1 of my weekly flex points... which I'm okay with. I think I did good. I forgot to have my multivitamin, and didn't drink all my water, but had 2 glasses... so over the next couple of days I'll drink a little more water and make up for it. Over all I think I had a B day.

Today, so far I'm on target, had my oatmeal for breakfast - about to have my snack... then it's a lunch of a plan old side salad with 4oz of turkey... mmmm I always seem to forget that I actually do like salad, but it has to have some sort of meat/fish in it. I also need to drink some water today too.

The other day, Skye (http://skye-lynn.blogspot.com/) wrote a great entry about being healthy not thin, and learning to love and except one self now at any size. That's exactly what one of my New Year's resolutions was this year... love me now and live today. For the past couple of years (well probably more than just a couple) I didn't really want to buy too much clothes for myself, because I wasn't happy with my body or how I looked... instead of just buying a bigger size that fit better, I would rather spend the money on my daughter. Along with my weight I basically let myself go. I'd get a haircut here and there, but didn't really have anything to wear. When Ross and I first started dating he wanted to go out dancing a lot... but I didn't - because I didn't have anything to wear. I still really don't have any club/dancing clothes but I'm getting there.

I decided this year that even though I'm losing weight I'm still going to improve my outside. For years my boss has been trying to gently get me to dress up a bit for work... I'd always wore jeans and any ol'shirt... my hair would sometimes be in a ponytail and rarely any make-up. She never said much to me about it but every once in a while she'd give me a gentle push... one year there was this huge sale at Macy's and she surprised me by buying me a huge load of blouses, sweaters, etc. It was very sweet of her... but I rarely wore the clothes to work. I figured she wanted me to go for a more professional image so I started wearing scrubs for a while... but eventually went back to my uniform of jeans and any ol'shirt.

We sometimes deal with attorneys, etc. I mostly deal with them over phone... rarely do I meet them in person or do they come into the office. But the few times they did I was a bit embarrassed because of my appearance... not really my weight... but mostly my clothes, messy hair, etc.

Rejoining Weight Watcher and climbing back onto the weight loss wagon has brought me back some of my confidence... I want to feel and look good everyday, and I decided that I don't want to wait 'til I reach goal to do so. I decided that even though I love sleep, and my jeans and ol'shirt is very comfortable... I was going to make an effort to get up a little earlier in the morning and invest a little time into my appearance.

Since I don't have tons of clothes and I'm losing weight... by the time I reach goal I'll have gone from a 14 to about a 7/8... that's a big difference so I don't want to spend a fortune in clothes... soooo I found a solution. SECONDHANDS! I've always been a thrifter but I never really took the time to sort through the clothing. I have been lately... and wow or wow... my wardrobe is building up... and when the clothes outgrow me, I won't feel guilting getting rid of them.

Since the beginning of the year I've been transforming myself from a jeans and ol'shirt girl to the Office Manager/Physician's Assistant that I am. I'm still a work in progress, but I I feel great! I don't wear make up everyday, but I do make sure to add a little color to my lips... and now that I've lost a little weight it opens up my options more at the thrift stores to find clothes that fit. Feeling good on the outside for some reason I think has effected my job performance... I feel like I get a lot more done. I look like an Office Manager/Physican's Assistant... so now I'm acting more like one... funny how that works...

Anyway, my point of that longish story is that we have to learn to love ourselves at any size... love ourselves now, work on making us feel good now, and live for today.

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I'm gonna to show you the money, I'M GONNA SHOW YOU RESULTS!!!

I don't know what's my problem this week... last week I totally got thrown off due to the holidays... and that's understandable. I vowed to start over this week... but I haven't been my best, I did get a lot of exercise in and most filling foods, but I also went over my points and drank very little water.

Tomorrow's weigh-in, so I need to get a game plan together TONIGHT. I'm making a menu for next week... then make sure to go get what I need. Thinking about it, I realized when I have weak weeks it's usually when I don't do my shopping. When I have what I need at home I'm good at staying on program.

So this week... I need to write my menu out, and make sure to have what I need. I'm new to writing a weekly menu (I got the idea from Di - http://theincredibleshrinkingfamily.blogspot.com).

Okay so here we go - I get 25 points per day:

BREAKFAST:
1 Cup Oatmeal: 2 pt
1/2 Cup Milk: 1 pt

SNACK:
Fruit/Vegetable: 0 - 2

LUNCH:
Mixed greens: 0
Dressing: 0-2
Poultry 3-4 oz: 3-4
Salad Extra: 1

SNACK:
Fruit/Vegetable: 0-2

SNACK:
Fruit/Vegetable: 0-2

DINNER:
1 Large Potato: 3
1 Cup Broccoli: 0
Butter Spray: 0
2 Tbs Sour Cream: 2
4 oz Poultry: 4

SNACK (optional):
Weight Watcher Dessert or Fruit/Vegetable depending on how many points I have left.

I think that's a pretty good menu for me. I'll try this for a week... then change it up possibly next week. If I go to Ross' this weekend I'll have to pack my food - he has the kids this week, so the menu is different from when it's just us. We usually make childhood classics that aren't the best foods for losing weight: french fries, burgers, pizza, mac and cheese, meatloaf, bean and cheese burritos on homemade tortillas, etc. I'll have to take my own food.

I can do this, I will do this! With in the past couple of weeks I've built up my followers from 2 or 3 to currently 35, plus my youtube viewers and those who aren't either but visit me here. I don't want to disappoint you. I don't want to be one of those people who lose the same couple of pounds over and over... I refuse to be that person! I wanna show you the money, I wanna show you results, and I will! Stay tuned!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Time Pressed

I was going to make a youtube video today, since I didn't make one yesterday... but today flew by, and now I'm not going to have time... I'm making dinner, I have to run downstairs and do some cleaning for my mother then I'll be back up to have dinner and greet Ross... who's probably on his way now.

So far today I'm doing okay. I don't have my info in front of me, but I think I have about 10-12 points left for the day. Tomorrow's the last day until weigh in... then I get to start all over... since I went over 28 points yesterday, I'm looking forward to a fresh start. This week I've been horrible with the water, I'm going to try to drink as much as I can today, and as much as I can tomorrow until until about 7pm - don't want any of that water staying in for Thursday's weigh-in. I think I'll be down at least a little bit... all losses are good losses... :)

No excuses for next weekend. Last night Ross and I were talking, and we both agreed I shouldn't do any baking the weeks he doesn't have the kids. Let's say I make a batch of brownies when he doesn't have the kids... him and I will eat the whole thing by ourselves... if Vi's around then the three of us... when the kids are there the batch get's divided between 8 sometimes 9 people... that's a whole lot better... if there isn't enough for everyone I'm known for giving my share up.

During the times he doesn't have the kids... if we want a treat, I'll make a special dinner from one of my Weight Watcher cookbooks. He doesn't have any weight to loss, nor does he follow Weight Watchers, but he likes to watch his intake and limit himself on rich/fatty foods. Before we met about 4-5 years ago he lost about 40 pounds and has since kept them off... he's really good with his intake... up until he smells the oven going and the sweet bake goods aroma... that's when he loses it.

It's almost dinner time, I'm about to cross today off the calender and am ready to finish tomorrow off on program and start a new week.

Monday, January 12, 2009

"When I'm good, I'm really good, and when I'm bad, I'm as bad as I wanna be." - Catwoman

See having mottos like that gets a girl trying to change her lifestyle in trouble!... I've been VERY bad, as bad as I've wanted to be.

I'm not going to break down what I had over the weekend... let's just say I'm paying for it now with endless gas, and feeling blah. I think all the sugar I had is actually making my joints achy... is that possible?

You know I did bad, I didn't total my weekend points or today's points until about 5-10 minutes ago. I didn't actually do to bad this week... I used up all my flex points and went over Sunday by about 4... not to bad.

I don't know what my deal was today though... I went over 28, I went on a junk food spree... I think I thought I did horrible over the weekend so figured what's one more day. NOT A GOOD THING TO DO!

I can't do anything about it today, other that just plan my meals for tomorrow... I weigh in Thursdays... so tomorrow and Wednesday will be veggie and fruit filled.

On the water front I should have already drank 30 glasses of water for this week - I've had 6. The filling foods/exercise challenge started this week... so I should of had 25 filling foods already, I've had 16... not to bad.

Exercise this week I should of already gotten in 2 1/2 hours... I got 3 hours and 45 minutes... not bad. I did a lot of shopping this weekend. We went to Walmart, then Ross set me lose inside his local Goodwill... $15 dollars and 30 minutes later I had a pair of new slacks (never worn), a casual blazer, a work blouse, a stretch casual shirt, and a sexy very feminine polka dot blouse. I did very good.

This year Ross and I have made a joint resolution... something we've been wanting to do for a while... learn to dance salsa. We went to a lesson a few months back, it was a disaster. So, I brought a video for us to try at home. Sunday we tried it for the first time. We didn't get through the whole video, but so far we're doing pretty good... we got the basic step down, turns, and a few other moves. We're gonna try to get through the video a few times then hit the club again with our fancy moves. We had so much fun just trying the video and it's great exercise.

We'll I have an early day tomorrow trying to catch up with every one's blogs... see you tomorrow!