Thursday, May 28, 2009

New Focus

I haven't written a from the heart post in a very long time. Things have been crazy around here... I'm not sure if I shared, I think I did... my mother had a pinched nerve in her back which had her bed-ridden for a few weeks. It was very painful for her and very stressful for me.

I've been off program last week... not binging, just not journaling or counting points. Last Thursday, I went to a meeting at my daughter's school - the nurse told me she was very concerned about Vi's weight, and wants her to lose some. She feels she's put on about 30 pounds since the beginning of the year.

My daughter has been to hell and back this year. I can't even begin to tell you everything that's happened since 9th grade started... I'm finally getting her back on track and working on getting her back to being her... including a new school next year. She tried out for this art school and got in! I'm so proud of her... anyway, back to the weight thing. We talked about it and decided we're going to work on us this summer... forming healthier habits, getting our apartment in order - purging a whole bunch of stuff and fixing this joint up... turning it into a place we LOVE BEING not just coming home too.

Lately with everything going on I've been too drained to do any cooking. For dinner a lot of times we've headed over to Jack In The Box or someone else convient. Since the meeting at her school (Thursday) we have not had fast food. Which actually wasn't very hard. I had totally forgotten about Smart Ones and Lean Cruizines... how could I forget? I stocked our freezer with the meals for our dinners... which has made it so much easier for me. I don't have to worry about cooking dinner or going to pick something up. I do want to start cooking dinner again, but I have to clear some things off my plate first.

This past week I did some thinking... I've been doing Weight Watchers since September 2008. I got down to I think it was 181... and now I'm back up to 191 with only a 7 pound loss... it seems like the more I think about the weight I've gained back the more I'm gaining...

So this week I'm going to try something new... I'm not going to worry about the scale. I'm going to focus on staying with in my points range - that's it!

I've decided to take my weight down off the side bar of this blog so that when I log in it's not in my face. Today I didn't think about what my weight was on the scale... instead I was prepared and focused on my points allowance and what I was putting in my mouth.

I really thought about what I ate and if it was truely worth the point(s).

It's last now and I won't be doing any more eating... I did go over my points by 3 but I earned them back by walking... so far today I've walked 5.56 miles and I'm still not done! I've got some cleaning to do and some more water to drink before I head to bed.

I can do this, I can stay motivated, lose this weight and set a good example for my daughter.


Anonymous said...

Your post struck home with me today. My daughters (twins) were also freshman this year, and the situation in their current school is less than desirable. This week I've been working on getting the paperwork together for them to go to a new digital arts school, and as of yesterday, we're pretty sure they'll get in. Teenage years are hard enough without having the place they spend the majority of their waking hours be the "wrong fit" for some reason or another.

Mrs. Sheila said...

Just stopping in to wish you well!

Patty said...

Oh Rosie, I'm sorry to hear things have been so hard for your daughter. It sounds like you're helping her (and yourself)in a very positive and supportive way. Good for you!

Big hugs, Patty

Rosie said...

FAB KATE: You feel my pain... for our part she was fine with going there, I wasn't. She made the wrong friends which resulted with very bad things happening to her... the school didn't care and basically told me they had 4000 students to deal with and couldn't really help me with my one. I'm not sure if you're in California but in my part of California charter schools are the way to go right now... super small schools. The one she'll be attending has 311 students and offer 6th-12th grade. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that your girls get into the school you all are hoping for.

MRS.SHEILA: Thank you. I appreciate you coming by and checking in on me.

PATTY: Thank you Patty, you can't imagine everything we've been through this year, but it only brought us closer and she's going to be okay. I'm with her all the way. Thank you for your kind words.