Today's Change

I know lately I've been totally off program... trying and trying again... but this morning I work up for a few seconds before the alarm and found my motivation again... I don't know where it came from but it was there.

A thought popped in my head.

Friday my BFF rushed her sister to the hospital. Her sister was diagnosed with Pancreatitis and gall stones... two conditions that can be caused by your diet. She's only 25 years old. She's overweight but not that much bigger than me. From the pain my BFF described her sister was in... I don't ever want to go there.

This morning I woke up and thought why can't I just get on program? What is my problem? I decided this morning I am not going to look at food as a cure all for all emotionals. I'm not going to use food as a pick me up or a reward. I'm going to have a different view of food.

Then I fell back to sleep.

When I woke up again for the day... I thought about going to get Chicken and Waffles because this weekend we tried a Waffle shop and I felt totally cheated by the crummy thin waffle. But I remembered my pledge this morning... how can I make a pledge like that and break it even before getting out of bed.

So far so good... I'm going to take it one day at a time. I had oatmeal for breakfast, pear for snack, and soup for lunch. I'll be having an early dinner and maybe a salad for snack.

I can do this. I will do this. I'll do it for me and to set an example for my bff's little sister... we can lose this weight. It's not impossible.