Internet Access

Guess who has regular internet access again?! Yup! You're truly. That means regular blogging. I haven't posted in over a year... and really haven't don't much dieting in over a year. I'm fat as can be but have had tons of changes in my life and I'm pretty happy right now. Now it's time to get my weight back in check!

I look forward to posting happy, healthy, positive post... and hope you come and visit me often.

Is anyone still out there?

Saturdays are FITNESS DAY

Just when I needed him most... I'm struggling BIG TIME with motivation... I get a text from my personal training informing me we won't be meeting tomorrow or ever again due to hi transferring clubs closer to his home... right across the street to be exact... :o/  

He gave me the name of the guy he was going to pawn me off too... but I don't know. I'm super picky about trainers and aside from my trainer there is only one other trainer I really would consider training with but according to my former trainer he has a busy schedule.

My new trainer Sal called me. He sounds super young, I have an idea of who he is... and I don't think I'm interested in training with him. Being that I've worked in the fitness industry before, have friend's who are trainers, and am a life long dieter/weight loser... I don't want a green trainer. I need someone who has been there and done that. Someone who can teach me more than one or two things. I need to get my money's worth!

I'm meeting with him tomorrow and then have a chance to decide whether I want to continue personal training or move on to something else.

I had an AWESOME trainer, but he wasn't too motivational. I think I trained with him so long because he was more of a therapist for me... once a week get together, workout and spill my guts about everything.

A friend of mine who is a personal trainer a few months back gave me her certification manual. I told her about the switch, she told me I pretty much know what I need to do to get to goal... when I'm ready to fine tune she'll help me. Cancel my personal training, use that money on other things and read the manual she gave me.

Suddenly, thinking about what I can do with an extra $100 a month got me motivated to lose weight again! I could buy Roller Skates to exercise... I can do 5K workshops, I can buy better workout shoes... I can afford to buy myself weight loss incentives... and I can try Weight Watcher meetings again if I'd like.

My options are limitless with that extra $100 a month. I'm so excited and motivated now I don't really feel like meeting with Sal tomorrow... I feel like going in and right away cancel my service and get my money back for the 4 sessions I have left.

But I set my appointment... so I'll follow through... but Monday I'm calling guest services and finding out how I can cancel my service and get my money refunded.

Saturdays I'm declaring Fitness Day! It's the day I officially weigh in, regroup, set my new goals... and update here.

I'm on this journey all alone... but for some reason I feel motivated! I'm excited! Being FIT here I come!

Last Day

I'm on the last day of my 1 week Challenge and my first week back on stricter op. I think today'll be a piece of cake!

My only challenge will be dinner on the go. I weigh-in tomorrow morning. I have my scale packed.

My new week starts tomorrow. I have my workout clothes packed, my feta cheese, water bottle. It's gonna be a weekend on the go, I should of packed my protein powder but I ran out of time.

It's okay. I'll figure it out. I'm determined to say op next week. I might have to dip into my extra 49 points next week... but I'm going to aim not too. Tomorrow there's going to be a kickball game including everyone. There should be calories burned there, I'm going prepared for a morning run and there might be a nice walk to the park.

Activity Points Weekend Goals:
-Today: 5
-Saturday: 10
-Sunday: 10

Today's goal is to stay within points, earn my activity points (which should be no problem), and drink my water early... lately at 11-something at night I've been chugging water.

Here's to a great day and OP weekend!

Hot Cocoa is my Methadone...

I don't know what my problem was yesterday or really lately. I think maybe emotions, stress and possibly depression trying to creep in. I don't know what my deal is but whatever it is I got to push through it and pick myself up and get cooking and moving.

I need to get in the habit of prepping my food the night before and getting my butt to the gym everyday (when I say every day I mean 4-5 times a week).

I know this, I've been known this... now I just have to figure out a way to turn cooking into a habit and awaken my gym habit up.

Sunday, I could have easily prepped my food for Monday. I have no excuses.

I over ate yesterday and didn't exercise. I got home, laid down and called it a night. Another thing I need to work on is a schedule. During the week I wake up in the morning, get dressed like a bat out of hell and run to make it to the bus stop by 6:05 or 7:10 depending of what my work day starts.

On Saturdays, I get up weigh-in and meet my trainer... that's it. Beyond those two things I have no other routine. Not even getting home from work is a set routine. Either my neighbor gives me a ride or I catch the bus for an hour ride.

I think having a set schedule would also help with weight loss... I can work food prep in, workouts and blogging. Blogging allows me to vent, share and get/give support. Support when trying to lose weight is underestimated as a necessity.

Yesterday, I over ate so much I won't be able to make those points up - it'll be impossible. So I'm restarting my count today. I'm sticking to my allotted 27 points, and any points I have I will allow myself to use half of those. I know I should have any considering I've over eaten for 3 days... but I'm not trying to set myself up for failure, and realistically I'm a hunger girl - I need extra points. I think I can handle only using half of what I earned.

So far today I've had:
- 1 egg
- 1 egg white
- 1 pita pocket
- hot chocolate/coffee
- Banana
Total Points: 8

It's a lot of points for just a meal... the hot chocolate was 4 points, but I think it's worth it right now. Around the office we have TONS of Halloween candy floating around, especially in my department and it's all too tempting for a chocolate/sugar addict. So having a controlled amount like a cup of hot cocoa will do me better than trying to stay away from it all together and then breaking down in the middle of the day and shoving Fun Size Snickers down my throat.

Hot Cocoa is my Methadone...

For snacks I have baggy of seaweed and a 2 pomegranates, for lunch I have a grilled spinach mix with spinach (of course), tomatoes, turmeric and onions - topped with Feta Cheese (my favorite) for a total of 2 points!

For dinner, I'm not sure yet. I might have more spinach or maybe I'll try making a chicken/chili mix. I have an idea of grilling a Weight Watchers Chicken Burger (chopped up), roasted Pasilla Chili Peppers and Feta - all shoved into a pita bread. That'd be 7 points... not too bad.

We'll see...

November Goals

I borrow this idea from my friend Hollie of SkinnyHollie.com... it's nothing but still an awesome idea that I need to remember to go more often. Set goals and state them clearly.

I know 14.7lbs is a lot to lose in a month, but it is my first month on a fresh start. I've also got a head start by a week. I'm hoping to have lost a few pound this week.

This past week (fresh start) I've been a little wonky on the water drinking. There are 30 days in November. 30 times 8 is 240 glasses of water, so I left a little leeway for a missed glass here an there. It's all about baby steps.

My goal for now is to workout every other day, so far this week I was suppose to workout 4 times, provided I workout tomorrow I would have missed 1 workout. But 3 times in a week is better than I've been lately. Did I mention baby steps? 30 days divided by 2 is 15 workouts... again I'm not trying to set myself up for failure like I have in the past. So my goal is 12 this month. 

I've been keeping score on the right side bio area. 

So do you set monthly, weekly, daily goals? If so... what are they?

This Wonder Woman Might of had too Much Wonder Bread

I'm finishing off the night with no more points left. Which is way better than negative points! I'll earn more extra points tomorrow during my workout... I'm aiming to earn 10 for the total day on Friday.

I didn't do too bad. After I ate my small mountain of candy, journaled it and found that I wasted 20 points on tiny candy bars I called it quits and stuck to healthier food the rest of the day. I know that doesn't sound like much but really that was a big accomplishment for me.

  A couple of months ago I decided I was going to dress as Wonder Woman for Halloween. What got into me... I don't know.  I went online ebay to look for an inexpensive costume... found one for under $22.00! Awesome! Great! The only problem was that it was coming from China (chances were the sizes would be wrong and most likely run small - but I was keeping my fingers crossed that the sizes would run big) and the ad was labeled One Size - S/M.

Now me being 40 lbs over weight I don't know what made me think I could fit into a S/M... I guess I was hopeful and focusing on the "One Size" part of the label, ignoring the "S/M" part.

When it got here I couldn't get it on from the top or the bottom! Wouldn't fit over my shoulders or over my hips. I was determined, I was motivated... by gosh I was going to wear this costume for Halloween even if I just wore it to spin around in circles in my living room - I was going to be Wonder Woman!

That determination, that motivation lasted a whole 2-3 days, then I completely forgot about I even brought it until a few days ago when I was cleaning out my closet and came across it.

I came home today from work and just for kicks attempted to get the costume on... and Holy Moly I got that bad boy on. But I didn't quite look like the Wonder Woman from Ebay... I looked way wider than I should have, and my waist wasn't going in the way it should be.. I tried to blame it on the fact that the costume was sent wasn't exactly the same costume in the ad, which could have had about 1% to do with why I didn't look so hot in this get up. :o/

I don't know what I was thinking...

Even thought I was not happy with the total end results, I was thrilled I got it on over my hips. I quickly took it off and put it away. I'm going to save it for next year!

I vow to be Wonder Woman next year in this exact costume and look Wonderful! I might not quite look exactly like the Ebay Wonder Woman... but I plan on being close!

 

I've got my work cut out for me. I can do it!

WONDER WOMAN!

Bit-Past-Mid-Week Check In

I've been meaning to blog all week. My goal is to get back to blogging on a regular basis. One to resurrect this blog and two because I miss blogging, I miss the community I was building here and the support I was giving and getting through this weight loss game.

It's fun-er to do when you don't feel like you're doing it alone.

I restarted with measurements and all this Saturday... yes this is the one millionth time I've restarted. Continuous restarts isn't good but that just means I haven't given up yet.

I have to keep reminding myself the first weeks are the hardest with anything. I've been restarting week after weeks now for a couple of months. I lost 10 on the last two months and put on 5 so I'm down 5 since September 1st.

This restart I have to stick with it. I need to lose it. My goal as of now is 44lbs. I'm doing the Weight Watcher's program (online) and making a goal to workout every other day. I worked out Saturday, Monday and was suppose to workout today but was just so tired. I went for a walk instead. I'll aim for Friday. I thought about trying to make it up tomorrow... but I workout in the evenings and tomorrow being Halloween I don't want to be out after dark.

Ideally, I'd like to start blogging every day or at least on some sort of schedule. I have so much info to share with you... I can't wait to get started.

My weigh-in days are Saturdays. I restarted this past Saturday, so I'm a little over midweek now. So far so good. I need to work on my water in take a bit, but I'm still with in points. I've used my activity points and have 10 of my flex points left... tomorrow my goal is to earn 5 more points... and not use up all my extra points.

It's gonna be hard, it's Halloween, we have candy ALL OVER the office and I'm a sugar addict. It's like dropping off a crack head at a crack house and telling them to be good.

Something different I've done this week is planning tiny meals. I have a few (sometimes more than a few) points every couple of hours. Every two hours or so I check to see if I'm hungry. It's been helping me start with in points. Usually by now I'm negative on the flex points.

Another thing I've been doing this week is learning to say NO to myself...

NO it's Wednesday and weigh is Saturday, you only have 10 flex points left and no points left for the day why do you think you can go check out that new burger joint across the street...
NO! That place will still be there on Saturday when you start your new set of points.
NO! You can't just go over there and have a burger and skip the fries and soda... the burger will still be more than 10 points!
NO! You can't skip the new burger joint and run to Jack in the Box for a Jumbo Jack.
NO! You can't go check out what Carl's Jr has to offer either.
NO! NO! NO!

YES! You can go to the grocery store and pick up some fruit, pasilla peppers and feta cheese. That you can do.
NO! You can't buy Halloween candy tonight to give to co-workers tomorrow because you'll get tempted, tear open the bag and promise to restart your program again Saturday.

YES! Possibly tomorrow morning, depending on your emotions and temptation level - you might be able to stop at CVS and pick them up some candy, or the grocery store for cupcakes... MAYBE... but if  you wake up feeling too excited about the idea of candy shopping in the morning... the trip to CVS will be cancelled!

It's been a bit of a tough week. But I have to keep my eye on my goal. I can do this. I read so many people losing weight, losing the natural way, losing the Weight Watcher way. I've done it before and I can do it again. I just have to keep my motivation FRONT and CENTER!

Next I'm going to break down my 44lb goal into mini goals and incentives. Incentives like a hair cut, a hoodie I've been waiting for two years now, etc.

So this is my bit-past-mid-week check in. So far so good. I have two more days to get through before weigh-in. I can do this!

So, how are you?

Changes to DietSodaDiva

You probably noticed the layout is WAY different than what it's been the last x-amount of years... I don't know what I did but I somehow deleted the whole layout and now have to start from scratch. Hopefully, I'll be able to fix that tomorrow.

I've got lots of info to share but just haven't had time to get around to posting. I'll be back tomorrow with tons of fun, exciting posts. Including, yes... ::sad face:: once again a restart.

DietSodaDiva on Facebook

I finally added DietSodaDiva to facebook. I created the page a long time ago, but didn't realize it wasn't published! Opsy. I've been posting quick tips, photos, etc over there... make sure to run over and add DSD... https://www.facebook.com/dietsodadiva

Wiggling Down to Goal

I weighed in yesterday at 178.0, that's a 1.2lb loss. Not bad, I expected a minimal loss due to tge 9lbs I lost in two weeks. But this week it's on! Come on body time to drop this weight!
Last week I didn't eat any of my extra 49 points, but did eat all the earned activity points. But Wednesday through Friday I didn't even finish my daily points.
This week I'm not gonna limit mtself so much. I'm gonna continue with my workouts and walking... Also I'm gonna try that Squat Challenge. I found it on facebook lets see if it lifts and shapes as promised... Lol.
I want to start it today.
Here's to another awesome week of losing!

A Few Days Away

It's a few days away from weigh-in. I sneaked on the scale last night... he read a two pound gain which is crazy talk considering I've been on point with my food intake and worked out a couple times this week.

I'm not too worried about it... I'm looking forward to a nice loss and a nice chunk of my 2nd mini goal gone.

I'd like to be 20lbs down by my birthday, I have 6 weeks to lose 11lbs - I think that's totally do-able!

I'm excited.

How are you?

Blogging Again

I really need to get back into weight loss blogging again. I'm currently doing Weight Watcher's online because I csn only get to meetings on Saturdays, but I meet with my trainer on those days - and since I basically walk everywhere it would take up my whole Saturday just to go to a meeting and train.

Plus my meeting is about 3 miles away - that would mean a 6 mile ealk before my training session. Huh... That's a bit extreme... even for me.

I commited the week before last and lost 3.6lbs. I haven't weighted in yet today.

I'm on my way to Weight Watcher's now to buy a scale (I lost access to the one I was using) and a new pedometer. The day before yesterday I got in the.whirlpool with mine and fried it.

I'm also starting a new rewards system. I've broken my grand goal into mini goals with realistic time frames. Each time I reach a mini goal I get a prize... a new sweatshirt, hair cut, etc. I'm working toward my 8lb goal when I reach it I get a hair cut which I desperately need.

Also, weekly if I have a loss... even if just a tiny one I'm going to treat myself to Starbucks on Sunday mornings.

Well, I'm off to get my new pedometer and scale...

'Cuz I like to suffer...

I was doing so well... I don't know what happened. February was a hard month for me. I was trying so hard to hold on but just couldn't. It was one emotional blow after another witj every blow I gained and gained a bit more. Now I'm almost back to my all time heaviest.

It's heart breaking for me but what can I do other than just start over...

I restarted Saturday with a goal of 64lbs. It's gonna take a bit but I know it's possible... I think consistancy or lack of is my problem.

I'm half way through weekly one... I'm a bit nervous.

Cybexing...

My goal for today was to burn 13 points... starting last week I've upped my workouts to an hour a day and I am for 6 days a week but if I only do 5 that's okay... things come up, etc.

I rotate between cardio and weights... today was a cardio day. I was in the zone during my first 30 minute workout... doing the cybex machine with arms... I was working this baby like there was no tomorrow. The other day per the machine, I burned 450 calories in 30 minutes. I kicked butt!

Today was a later workout and it's later in the week so I set my goal for 350... but when I got close to the end of the workout I seen I way surpassed my goal and was already at 400 calories burned... so I put the petal to the metal and go to pumping like crazy....

I had 15 seconds to spare... I felt a little off but ignored the feeling... I wanted to see 444 on the screen.

When I looked again it said 445 with 10 seconds left... I was going to pump like crazy for those next 10 seconds... I felt like something was coming up but again... I was in the zone, so I ignored it.

7 seconds left and my stomach exploded. I vomitted all over the place... must have been about a gallon of water and a tiny bit of orange I had earlier...

So embarrassing. I went to the front desk, explained what happened. Asked for towels... I cleaned it up, but the housekeeping cholo that works there looked a little **** off.

I felt like telling him to get over it. It was mostly just water and I had cleaned up the mess already, all he had to do was run a mop over it.

I actually still was planning to do a second 30 minute workout but the front desk guy in a friendly way said that was it for me... so I came home :o( only 8 points burned.

I completely forgot today was suppose to be a half cardio and half weight day... I have a dumbbell set here... let's see if I can burn a few more calories with some weights... right now I'm up to 8 Activity Points earned... I doubt I be able to make up the other 5... 2 more would be nice... :o)

Just Average...

Recently I found an old list of weigh-ins... I went back to all my old resources and updated/filled in the spots... weigh-ins from 2008 to this year 2013.

Bored, I played with the numbers and here are some stats I came up with...

Average Weight Per Year:
2008 - 185.93
2009 - 183.84
2010 - 171.44
2011 - 176.8
2012 - 179.21
2013 - 171.92

2008 - was happy in a relationship... I had been even before the two prior years... at one point in 2006 weighing in at 200.5 at a Weight Watcher's meeting... my heaviest ever.

My over all weight with in the last 6 years (including this one): 179.93

What good do all of these averages make.... hhmmm well none really... just thought it was interesting how I've gone up and down.

I'm tired of battling my weight. I am tired of my weight from holding me back from what I want. I need to take these negative feelings, this frustration and transform it into motivation and strength to keep on moving, keep on tracking... to keep on losing.

My official first goal is 159.8... but my mini personal goal right now is to bring this years average weight down to 171.43... if I lose a pound this week that'll lower my average to 170.94! Then I can focus on lowering my over overall average to 179.21.

I an do this... 28lbs.

HEY 28LBS! GET THE HELL OFF ME!

DietSodaDiva Again

Recently, I decided to start blogging again and restarted my lifestyle blog with the intentions of writing about everything including weight loss.. after I posted about my goal to lose weight... it just didn't feel natural to post about it over there... so I'm back here writing DietSodaDiva again...

I'm feeling a little anxiety and frustration right now... as I was looking at my DSD dashboard I realized I've been writing this blog on and off since September 4th, 2008. That means I have been actively trying to lose this same weight for years. I'm going on five! WTF?! What the hell is my problem?

Why can't I just stick to something and just keep at it? And what's even more frustrating and anxiety causing is knowing I've been trying to lose this weight for even longer! I joined Weight Watcher's for the first time January 2, 2000... and have been on and off Weight Watchers and other diets since.

What's my problem? I am tired of failing but refuse to give up. My goal weight isn't unrealistic... I can do this. I know I can. So here we go again... coming along with me on my journey to goal...

below is a post originally posted on my lifestyle blog:

January 3, 2013


Today was Day One of working toward my weight goal in 2013. Odd thing is I got on the scale on the 1st of January and I was 30lbs away from goal... but this morning was 7lbs heavier! Is that really possible... to gain 7lbs in two days on a liquid diet? I had a tad bit too much to drink on New Years Eve and spend the next days living on clear soup, saltines and 7-Up. So today... Day 1 - 37lbs to go.

PLAN

- The Fat Smash Diet: I use to have a friend who lost 30lbs on this plan and kept it mostly off. I tried this diet a few years ago when she did it... but I got carried on the unlimited fruit and didn't make any progress. This time I'm adding some limitations to my intake. So... there I am above in my glory and 37lbs of extra weight... The Fat Smash Diet is broken up into 4 different phases... Detox, Foundation, Construction, The Temple... Phase 1 is basically 9 days of eating unlimited fruits and vegetables, some egg whites, no meat, no sugar... and limited carbs. I messed up a tiny bit today... I had 1 1/2 green enchiladas... :o/

DietSodaDiva.com

Well I messed up and forgot to register DietSodaDiva.com and the domain was snatched from me... :o/

At this point I'm not sure what to do either register a whole new name or a variation of DietSodaDiva.com... I'll have to give it some thought.

So are you LOVING Weight Watcher's Points Plus program? I'm having a bit of a hard time... but I am working on adjusting...

How is everyone?!

My Birthday Intake

Sunday, I had 3,580 Calories, 485 grams of Carbs, 131 grams of Fat, 140 grams of Protein, and 9,744 grams of Sodium... according to myfitnesspal.com in 5 weeks I'm blow up (if I don't have a heart attack by then)! I'm back on program today - feels good!

Journaling

I've been journaling on both websites - myfitnesspal.com and weightwatchers.com and it's all become too much for me... I think what I'm going to do is for right now until Thursday - is paper journal and count points. Yesterday was my birthday so I went to Borders and brought myself a nice calorie counting journal... just like myfitnesspal.com I'm going to try that for a bit and see how it works for me.

I feel I need to focus more on eating a balance diet, I've got points counting down... but I turned 34 this year, I need to start focusing on eating balanced meals and keeping an eye on my sugar intake and sodium. I think mfp.com will help me pay more attention to balancing my intake...

I still love Weight Watchers and still plan on weighing-in and attending meetings, they offer in person support like no other! I'm just gonna take a break from counting points for a bit.

Right now my birthday goal is to reach 155 by 11/15/10! I think I can do it! Who wants to join me?!

DIET SODA DIVA IS GOING PAPERLESS!

After almost 11 years of paper (food) journaling - I'm going paperless purely journaling just online... only when I'm away from internet access I'll use a paper journal. I'll be journaling for now at both myfitnesspal.com and weightwatchers.com...

I'm also thinking of making a progress chart at home for my weight loss to post on my wall... I'll have to come up with something clever looking. I think seeing my progress in my face everyday will be super motivational... I'll post pictures once I'm done making it... it'll probably be some time next week...

Do you have a progress chart on your wall? If so... what does it look like?